today's tuesday

i decided to keep turtlepace out of sight. id still be blogging here but i wont let others see it. ill be back after three years. why? i dont know. this blog will be floating in the net waiting for somebody to read it. ummm this blog is supposed to be a record of the things that happen in my life. what could happen after three years? i dont know. sometimes i make so rash decisions. i think i just made a bad decision but i dont care really. i dont know. i am so confused with this life. i have a lot of things in my mind. i have my studies going on around me. i have my sad lovelife to deal with. i have my inner struggles. and there is even that political crisis in my beloved country. ayyy everything is so confusing. and sometimes i feel like the world is going on around me and i am just watching it go by. i seem to be a mere spectator of other people, i am close to the characters, to the scenes but i cant seem to absorb it all. i am so confused, i think im going crazy.